Tuesday, March 3, 2009
I have depression these days... I don't know why but somehow it looks like i'm forcing myself to smile in the faces of my friends. I am not faking expressions or feelings. Yes, i feel genuinely happy when they are but somehow some emotion or matter of mine just stop me from smiling warmly from my heart. It is somehow soem private matter of my own? I am not really sure. Somehow, always, I always started dwelling on the topic of life itself. Not that i hate death or what...but just my own meaning of life. I have dreams, goals, ambitions any normal typical human have. But i think i lack something. That is why i still want to live on and accomplish my goals when all i can do is die and live under 6m of soil, away from the sinful lives of the world? When i got to this, I was so confused that probably i will feel like giving up and wander alone somewhere. Not everywhere in this world or my surroundings look as much welcoming than my bed at home.
Jade Ng Jing Li
2:39 PM
Jing Li(Jade)
1. Always the Japan freak.
2.Wants a lot of things normal humans don't perceive.
3.The Extreme stubborn one.
4. The Porcupine-personality.
5. Lazy too. You should be amazed I've updated this blog at all..
My Wishlist
Vintage bag Go on Star Cruise Digital camera (canon) An apartment of my own A trip to China More hazelnut chocolates Laptop vaio (hot red) My own FREE life Learn drumming A year of holidays My own stable job Pure Science in 2009 have long hair(????) read more comics own a gucci bag(???) More savings
LOVES
a.Anime
b.Manga
c.Friends
d.Hazelnut ice cream
e.Computer
f.Japanese language
HATES
1.Cockroaches
2.Immature boys
3.Pocket money below $7
4.Computers with the speed of a grandmother
Vintage bag
Go on Star Cruise 
Learn drumming